Even if she knew that it will be again she, she said to me something totally unexpected: "Sweetheat, listen to me. I don't want to choose any more, if I can buy myself new tights or food for a dog" (She had torn tights to go at work, that moment was very hard for my family, and each day she needed to make hard choises). As a child I didn't understand this and I was angry that she doesn't want me to have a dog.

 

My Mom is one of the most responsible and brave woman I know. When we had a dog, she was treating it like another, 4th child. During years she was not buying herself nothing, no make up, no new clothes, no hairstyle, nothing. For her the calculation was simple: pay the bills/taxes to have our home, to have electricity and warm water, money for food, hygiene products and school supplies.

Yes.. you can call it a real sacrifice. And the argument she gave me, was a plaintive cry for a bit of herself in all this. It's sad what I am writing, even now I feel it so deep in my heart.

 

Maybe you are working very hard, you spend your days at work just to win a little bit more, to keep your family. And when you're comming back home, you are so tired that you can't even admire your family. But there are days when you catch yourself on beeing quiet, just watching your family without saying nothing, you just feel them and observe with warm feeling.

 

Maybe you are alone at home, keeping your children and sometimes you are so tired that you want to escape and you don't know even where you can go. You are ill, you have high fever but still you are able to finish your day and put your child to sleep in the evening. After you cry..  But the next day you wake up, you hear: "Mooom!" You receive a small, ordinary little hug and a kiss and it boost you to do everything over and over.

 

Maybe you are still very young, living with your parents, they are asking you to do things which you don't want to do, but you do them. Or  it's you, who want to do something for them and it's so hard to do, but you're still doing it, just to help and make their life more easy.

 

Maybe you want to make something (workout, garden jobs, gift for your girlfriend/boyfriend) and everything is falling on your head, the car is broken, the weather is horrible, and nothing is going good. You are asking yourself: "Sh**.. it's not possible!" You want to give up, but in that moment, something is lighting inside you and somehow you have force to go on. This is calling determination and beeing sure of somehing in life.

 

It's rare to be sure of something in life. Specially in these days, everything is "temporary".

 

Keep in mind that each sacrifice you make, you will receive the fruit back. It works like this in world. You just need to open your eyes and to see little things which are happening around you. You will see that the strong emotions you give, they will always come back to you.